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"I'm too tired to be bored
I'm too bored to be tired..."

Insomnia. Again.
Damn, I'm sick of not being able to sleep. First it was my soul missing. Then it was Lucifer.
And now this.
Seriously, I'm so tired of this.

"...and my mind is playing tricks on me
And I can't sleep tonight
'cuz I'm so tired..."

I keep lying awake, staring at the ceiling, thinking.
And in the darkness, the memories come back. The horror comes back.

The fear comes back.

And sometimes I almost believe that I'm still in BL/ind, drugged with demon blood, still in the torture room, hallucinating from all the poison in my blood.

But... when I'm alone in the darkness... and I embrace it... all the fear disappears.
All the sadness disappears...
All the pain disappears, leaving me alone with the anger, alone with myself...
That's when I know I'm different. The darkness and the suffer don't scare me anymore... I actually enjoy them.

"...I'm too mental too go crazy..."

But damn, I'm so sick of people telling me I'm gonna go all dark side and start killing people and stuff.
I won't... would I?

"...I don't wanna hear about it
I don't wanna scream about it
I don't wanna hear it anymore...

Sam Winchester out.

(Yeaaah. Poor Sammy.
  • Mood: Tired
  • Watching: the ceiling
  • Drinking: whiskey, though it doesn't help


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Sam Winchester
United States
I... I really don't know what to write here. I'm just a guy, y'know. Just a random guy, who's trying to start over, after all the horrible things I've done.

If you need me, I'll be hanging around in the Zones with my brother Dean. And if you're in trouble, we'll be there on time to save your ass.

So yeah, see you around, guys.

Sam Winchester out.

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Hey. Haven't seen you around here before.
*suddenly appears behind you* ...Hi, Sam. *weakly smiles*
*kinda jumps, startled, turns around* What- *blinks, eyes widen* Kay... Kayleigh? What... How...
Doesn't matter...but for Christ's sake, where the fuck have you been? *smile fades* ...I was in hell, or some form of it, and Dean got kidnapped by a sadistic, psychotic bitch. We needed you, and you weren't there.
*blinkblink, doesn't really know how to react* ...Well, I'm sorry, Kay, but I thought you were dead. How was I supposed to know you needed me? I tried to bring you back, for weeks, and then I just left because I couldn't handle the fact you were gone. I preferred to go to hell than to stay here without you, so I guess you can figure how fucking much I care, so don't talk to me like this, please... *looking more upset than angry; the fact you don't even seem to be happy to see him makes him even sadder*
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(omigod who is this hes hot!)
hey there
(You mean the man on the picture? He's Jared Padalecki, the guy who plays Sam in Supernatural XD)

(haha hes cute)
im penny
Leanneisme Jan 25, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
Hey Sam, could you possibly do some research for me?
Sure. What is it?
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